What tribe? Trust who?

Hey Queens and kings,

It’s nearly Monday and some of you, like me are thinking urgh! I spent the whole weekend working or studying *rolling eyes emoji* where was my tribe at? Do I even have a tribe? and then something called trust or lack of comes creeping into your mind. Yup I’m going there! So, grab your ginger beer guys and get ready to feel some type of way!

Me, Myslef and I…

Fortunately I have a great tribe which consists of some amazing friends and family but because I’ve got so much on my plate at the moment I rarely have ‘Me time’ let alone time to socialise. This being said I always try to whatsapp/text or snap them once a week. It also means that when I don’t do that I start to think ‘hold up, this friend didn’t bother checking in on me’ or ‘Are they really my friends?’. I start going into ‘I can do good all by myself’ mode, I see you …don’t act like you don’t do this too.

But then, the worst happens and by the worst I mean; the essay you’ve been working on didn’t save properly, someone ate that food you’d been saving or you didn’t get the job you wanted even though you know you smashed the panel. Suddenly, ‘I can do good all by myself’ mode doesn’t seem too pretty and you start to want someone who you can talk rubbish to at 3am, someone who is there when you get rushed into hospital or that friend who is your Iron and edit reads the first draft of your book that is coming out at the end of June (Shameless plug alert HA). Shockingly, I becomes much more damaging than self, Tisha what are you even talking about?!

The self and I…   

These are my thoughts on the self and I, so bare with me Queens and Kings! So in my opinion, ‘I’ is the part of us that turns what we think is self love into something more damaging. For example we (me included) let past hurts make us have trust issues and so we stop ourselves from getting close to people (our view of self love) God has put in your life for a reason and so we end up lonely, get it? We are too afraid of things of this world and unaware of Gods divine plan for our lives and how he makes things work together for our good.

Whereas the ‘Self’, again in my opinion, is the part of us that is constantly evolving. The part of us that listens to God and gives people a chance to get close to us, the part of us that through the storms allows God to provide us with a tribe that will be there for us when we need them and lastly it’s the part of us that pours into other people.

God and therapy… 

I’ve talked about God a lot in this post because I’d be so low, if I didn’t have God in my life, it may seem crazy to you but my relationship with God sustains me through everything I go through. This world throws so much at me and sometimes really tries to make my faith weak but knowing I have God gives me the peace of mind that I’ve always needed. Without even knowing it, God and my faith has been apart of my therapy for a long time. Therapy as I’ve explained before was something that I thought only people who thought they had ‘problems needed’, as a part of my course I  have to have some form of arts therapy. Oh my, how it made me really get to know the ‘I’ part of me. Therapy is allowing me to be confronted by parts of myself I didn’t know I had or chose to ignore and God and my faith are giving me the love, safety, power and confidence I need to re-align myself. It’s very hard for some people to understand but both have helped me navigate through this temporary time I have.

Ending note … 

Let God establish your tribe and don’t let the enemy attack it. – TishaJayy

peace and love TishaJayy

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3 thoughts on “What tribe? Trust who?

  1. Dominique says:

    This made me laugh because I’m always in that ‘I can do good all by myself’ mode. Really liked the quote that you ended with. Let go and let God.

    Looking forward to reading your book x

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