Hey beautiful Queens and kings,
I hope your week went well and If your 9-5 is at a school (like me) I hope you’re ready to enjoy this half term, to my fellow educators we earned it! You should know the deal by now, grab a ginger beer and get comfy because we’re about to go deep this week!
How many of you guys have bee feeling like you’ve been drawn out from everything you once found fun, exciting or felt like you needed? Just in case you can’t see it my hand is up HA. I have been stripped of everything I was leaning on for my happiness, everything but my faith.
Reflecting I had realised that my bodily health went pear shaped, my job was up in the air because I didn’t know if I would have been able to work the days I would be available next academic year, I don’t have a man in my life, I’m unsure If I can have kids, I had lost people in my life who I cared about deeply and I also felt like I had no one to lean on or moan to (see my last post about my tribe). Now If you have read last weeks post you will know that I felt alone and in being alone I have felt drawn out from my crutches; those things/people I leaned on when I needed support.
Your past is….your past.
I know you’re thinking *cue the attitude* ‘Your past is your past? you don’t say’ but bare with me. I know that we all SEE that our past is our past because that’s what time and dates tell us BUT our need to LIVE in our past is VERY REAL. It’s like for some reason (whether you’re christian or not) we love to cling onto our past and we love to remind ourselves of what happened a week ago, a month ago or even year ago. We all seem to want the break through in our lives yet we don’t how to break free of our past experiences which are now serving as chains rather than spring boards into our blessings. Okay, hold up! For those you that think your poop smell like roses *rolling eyes* read the next part of this blog post with an open heart. So, you and your old friends have drifted apart and when I say drifted I mean God has drawn you out. Then, God brings you a new friend and you don’t want to get to know this friend because he/she doesn’t fit into what you USED to do with your OLD friends the one God drew you away from. A few weeks later you go and be talking to God like ‘why have you made me lonely? I want to be a godly woman/man but I don’t have no one who is like minded. God please send someone who is like me’.
This new friend that God has blessed you with wants to do things that you say you want to do but you aren’t active in doing them and so in your arrogance you swerve Gods blessing. YUP, BIG MISTAKE.
Living in the present!
To live in the present we must let change of ‘self’ happen and listen to what God is trying to tell us. For those of you that are like “How do I know what God is trying to tell me?”:
- Make sure you are in constant communication with God, it can be through prayer, journalling and praise (build a relationship).
- Make sure what you think God is telling you aligns with the bible (the truth), Im not saying that God will tell you to do wrong things..I’m telling you the enemy will try sneak in smelling of sweetness.
- Be still and wait (whilst you wait fasting is great, it can be traditional fasting from food but what helps me is fasting from things like TV, social media and sometimes certain places/people).
The wait is a major key!
Us 21st century humans love to get results fast, we seem to think that we should get things in a microwaved fashion. What we fail to realise is that sometimes microwaved things don’t always taste great and the quality isn’t as great as it could of been if it was oven made. In waiting God gives us direction and guidance from the holy spirit, I mean If Jesus was led into the wilderness by the holy spirit we sure can humble ourselves to be guided by it too. When we are waiting we may be being tested not necessarily by God but more so by the enemy; a big example of the in the bible is Jobs story. This is not a test to determine that we are not worthy of Gods love but is a testing of our faith both when we have ‘worldly wealth’ and when we are faced with a storm.
Waiting can also serve as preparation for your next season, God needs you to wait and seek him at deeper level so that he can prepare you for your future. God will never give us something that that we cannot handle (by his strength of course), he will not send us in blind, he is our biggest supporter and encourager and he is for us not against us.
So, the next time God draws you out to call you to wait make sure you listen and be disciplined in doing so.
“Be still and know that I am God. I will exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalms 46:10
Peace and love